My story

My life has been changed so much over the past year or two. I went from being a lazy gamer with no ambitions to a loving husband to the most amazing woman to ever grace the earth with her presence. I was trapped in addiction. A slave to pornography and lies. However i am thankfully no longer that man. What changed? How did I escape that dark abyss? Finding something to be grateful for. Finding something or someone to motivate me to not only do, but to be better. I found that in my wife. When I had all but given up looking for a companion she found me. How did she find me? I wanted to change. I wanted to be free of sin and pain. My family life was difficult to say the least. Everyone was trying to just survive on their own, and the people who needed extra help fell through the cracks. School was just a social relief for me. A place for me to just mess around with friends and flirt with girls. How grateful I am that that chapter of my life is over and I'm on a brand new chapter.  A chapter that is so different from the rest of the story of my life that I often wonder if I am living a chapter from a different story.
To any and all of you that may find yourself where i was, I have a suggestion for you. Run. Run from everything that is holding you down and find something new. The best way to run from your past is to let go of it. I am willing to bet that every single one of you has something in your life that is your fall to excuse or your crutch. The only thing that is stopping you from running away is that you have this crutch that you keep dragging around. You tie baggage to it and you end up limping through life instead of sprinting through with the winds of change and love pushing you to new horizons. You may be happy to hear that I have not only quit lying and viewing pornography but I have also forgiven all those who I felt had wronged me.
The biggest difference in my life isn't that people actually enjoy being around me and I have confidence. It's not that I am married and now don't feel so devoid of love. It is that I am the master of my fate. I am able to do whatever I put my mind to. I am becoming more and more confident in whatever I set my mind to. I am the master of my destiny. I am better with money, I am better at controlling my mind and body. I can be honest with everyone knowing that I have nothing to fear. Why do I have nothing to fear? Because I am filled with faith and love. Fear can not exist while faith and love fill your heart. I have been selfconscious about my body all my life but now I find strength to work towards the body and health I desire. Believe in yourself and anything is possible. Have faith and stay strong and achieve greatness in your life. I love you and hope to hear of your progress soon. Until next time, Sterling out.